Bah

Lucca (Italy), afternoon


I am getting every day more and more stressed about my departure. The grant I got from the French Government to spend 4 additional months is Montpellier is giving me one problem after the other, so I am not sure if I will accept that at the end (even if officially I already sent a fax to accept it, so I hope that this will be not a further problem).

Beside this, I am really, really nervous today. I know exactly what I want, what I need and what it would make me happy, but not everything goes the way I want, especially when it is not depending on me...and this feeling of not being able to drive things and situations in the direction I want, makes me frustrated and nervous. Incredibly nervous.